I got up early this morning for an early 7AM work meeting call. Of course this fatigueness, still hovers me and no matter what, I can't shake it off. Blame it on the WBR.
But, I move towards my day, telling myself to take frequent rests. Before I know it, it was time to head off to my 4th session of WBR.
It went quickly and this time, I had a check in visit with Dr. G afterwards. I tell her of how I can't shake off this intense fatigueness and also begged her if I can have a break off from this WBR treatment next week as it is my Spring Break family vacation.
She was kind enough to suggest a few options, like intensifying my radiation and its intensity so that I can be done by Wednesday, 4/3 or giving me every other day off. But, I'm still unsure of either options as I'm terrified if I can handle double the fatigueness if given double the radiation. And taking the 2nd option of every other day off, further stretches the process along; which means more fatigueness carried further. Getting done with treatment sooner than later is a welcome, but more intense radiation strength also means my hair will definitely all fall out. And so if I just stay the course, I'm holding to a thread of hope and chance that my hair will only thin out. But, Dr. G, crushes that hope as she tells me, "You will loose all your hair. No doubt about it."
So, I'm still thinking about it and will discuss with her more about it tomorrow. Either way, I still have to get this WBR done. It is what it is. 4 down. 11 more to go. Lots of Love.
But, I move towards my day, telling myself to take frequent rests. Before I know it, it was time to head off to my 4th session of WBR.
It went quickly and this time, I had a check in visit with Dr. G afterwards. I tell her of how I can't shake off this intense fatigueness and also begged her if I can have a break off from this WBR treatment next week as it is my Spring Break family vacation.
She was kind enough to suggest a few options, like intensifying my radiation and its intensity so that I can be done by Wednesday, 4/3 or giving me every other day off. But, I'm still unsure of either options as I'm terrified if I can handle double the fatigueness if given double the radiation. And taking the 2nd option of every other day off, further stretches the process along; which means more fatigueness carried further. Getting done with treatment sooner than later is a welcome, but more intense radiation strength also means my hair will definitely all fall out. And so if I just stay the course, I'm holding to a thread of hope and chance that my hair will only thin out. But, Dr. G, crushes that hope as she tells me, "You will loose all your hair. No doubt about it."
So, I'm still thinking about it and will discuss with her more about it tomorrow. Either way, I still have to get this WBR done. It is what it is. 4 down. 11 more to go. Lots of Love.
your right, the fatigue is like nothing I could ever imagine.
ReplyDeleteLosing all your hair... wow. =\ That definitely is a tough choice, one that no one would ever want to make. Regardless, I'm sure you'll make the right one....
ReplyDeleteDarn radiation....