Today I got up early for my CT and MRI scans appointment at Stanford. My alarm was set to beep around 6:30AM but I got up a little earlier like 5:30AM and then, as soon I layed back down to get some more zzzs, I had to get back up again to get ready and get going before the morning rush hour traffic. I got there just in time and once again, got painfully poked with a big IV needle. Yuck. It even got more yucky when the technician shot up through IV, this thick, yucky matellic taste of contrast. Then, I was wrapped up with flour like dough on my face so that they can make a masky, netty mold of my head to prepare for my upcoming Cyberknife radiation procedure this week. I felt like a wrapped up mummy with the white dough covering my entire face and head. This doughy masked stayed on my head the entire time I was lying on the donut CT scan machine for about 15-20 minutes.
Aaugh, while going through this procedure, I was thinking and realizing to myself that this yuckiness, these contrast CT and MRI scans, these constant IV poke routines every single week, it's endless. I should get used to these procedures by now, but, really, I'm not and just plain don't like it. I wish I can just rub on an oil lamp Genie and I'm granted back my healthy self. Some cancer patients are lucky, even faced with late stage 4 cancer, after a few rounds or a year's worth of treatments and scans, they are pronounced cancer free. Wouldn't that be great if I'm all done with all the treatments by now and to be cancer free for life. That would be the ultimate dream. But, with the dire diagnosis of what I have, since there's no known cure, it won't be happening. Still, I'll keep up wishing for it and quietly dreaming of it in my hearts.
Back to my scans, well, after the CT scan, I walked on over to the main hospital to be on stand by for the brain MRI. More yucky contrast again. Good thing this time, this brain MRI was fast and brief. After 10 minutes of loud knocking sounds, it was over. By now, it was about 10AM and then, I had to drive myself into work for the rest of the day. By 5 PM, I called it a day and left on home. I don't know the results of these scans until this Wednesday when I meet with the radiologists to get the Cyberknife radiotheraphy done.
Other than this, I've been busily planning and taking the kids with me this past weekend to prepare for Ellen's upcoming big 4 years old princess/Little Mermaid Birthday party. They were a big help and wanted to be apart of every detail. With 3 kids in toe, they all came with me to select out Ellen's custom ordered castle princess/little Mermaid cake, pinata and even picked out the type of character jumpers they should have online as well as party favors wrapped with ribbons. They're all excited to see their friends, cousins and family to come celebrate her Birthday. Lots of Love.
Aaugh, while going through this procedure, I was thinking and realizing to myself that this yuckiness, these contrast CT and MRI scans, these constant IV poke routines every single week, it's endless. I should get used to these procedures by now, but, really, I'm not and just plain don't like it. I wish I can just rub on an oil lamp Genie and I'm granted back my healthy self. Some cancer patients are lucky, even faced with late stage 4 cancer, after a few rounds or a year's worth of treatments and scans, they are pronounced cancer free. Wouldn't that be great if I'm all done with all the treatments by now and to be cancer free for life. That would be the ultimate dream. But, with the dire diagnosis of what I have, since there's no known cure, it won't be happening. Still, I'll keep up wishing for it and quietly dreaming of it in my hearts.
Back to my scans, well, after the CT scan, I walked on over to the main hospital to be on stand by for the brain MRI. More yucky contrast again. Good thing this time, this brain MRI was fast and brief. After 10 minutes of loud knocking sounds, it was over. By now, it was about 10AM and then, I had to drive myself into work for the rest of the day. By 5 PM, I called it a day and left on home. I don't know the results of these scans until this Wednesday when I meet with the radiologists to get the Cyberknife radiotheraphy done.
Other than this, I've been busily planning and taking the kids with me this past weekend to prepare for Ellen's upcoming big 4 years old princess/Little Mermaid Birthday party. They were a big help and wanted to be apart of every detail. With 3 kids in toe, they all came with me to select out Ellen's custom ordered castle princess/little Mermaid cake, pinata and even picked out the type of character jumpers they should have online as well as party favors wrapped with ribbons. They're all excited to see their friends, cousins and family to come celebrate her Birthday. Lots of Love.
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