San Diego we Go! Family Vacation

Guess what? We have been recently been awarded an amazing WOW!gift by the Jack and Jill Foundation, http://www.jajf.org/ to a fabulous family vacation to San Diego, CA!  What an incredible grant this is. Since we got married, our honeymoon was the only vacation we have been on for the last six or seven years.  We have yet to go on any real family vacation, either due to being pregnant and or time from work to be able to plan one.

Excited and anxious, we are so graciously humbled and thankful for this foundation to offer this opportunity! We picked San Diego since our kids would love going to LegoLand, SeaWorld, San Diego Zoo and being by the nice, beautiful warm beach would be the perfect balance. Originally, we had planned on Disneyland but decided on San Diego due to Ethan's love of Legos and request to go there when he saw the SeaWorld commercial.  Check out the video of what Jack & Jill offered this family http://www.youtube.com/JAJForg#p/a/u/0/cegxc8nM0jA.
It is truly amazing what wonderful work this foundation does.

We are also fortunate that Jason, our Legacy volunteer photographer who has been taking monthly photos of us will also be joining us on our trip.  Him and his family nicely agreed to come along with us so that his son can enjoy the same places we're going to while also helping us capture picture perfect lifetime memories.  So, thank you Jason for agreeing to come on our family vacation to offer his talent and gift to us.

Bargaining, Praying
I woke up this morning and thought, hmm, what if it's not the Zumeta that is causing me to be so sick? Perhaps it's not the side effects of Zumeta? Perhaps, it's the cancer? What if my condition is getting worse? Thinking about this just makes me even more sad.  I just can't let me myself go there and have to keep up my prayers and positive energy.  My Dr has prescribed 5 days of antibiotics to help me get through this viral infection. I'm also scheduled for a chest X-ray tomorrow. So, let's pray it's nothing serious.

Ever since my diagnosis, there isn't a day that I haven't prayed and bargained for more and more time with my kids and family.  I'm fighting with every breath for more and more time. Life is so precious and every quality of life, every quality second I get to spend with my kids is the best gift I can have. 

I try my darnest to be strong and not let my feelings of despair overcome me even though lately, every day has been a big struggle. It's hard to tell that I'm in pain since I try my best to not let any negative thoughts overtake me.  As each day begins, my goal has always been the same, to continuelly be strong and to make every day as joyful as it can be for the kids.
And as each day ends, as we put the kids to bed, the kids and I say our nightly prayers. Every night, as I put Ethan to bed, he always says several prayers to GOD for me to get better. It's so sweet and heartbreaking. I'll be sure to record it so I can share how adorable and cute he is. If I don't get to it, this is his prayers every single night. "God, please help my Mommy get better. God, please, please get my Mommy get well again. Please make the cancer go away. Thank you God. Amen." With that, I need to get better soon.  Let's hope for the very best.