Happy New year. Like today, time seems to fly by so fast. After doing one errand of taking the kids to the mall to exchange some clothes for smaller sizes it was soon nightfall. Speaking of time, I wish I can walk back in time and change everything. I wish my cancer was found sooner at an early stage and that it was curable. More than anything, I want to be here for my kids, to be there for them to help guide them through life. It's a heavy burden and my heart breaks that I will leave my kids motherless due to this. But, as usual, before I let my worrisome thoughts of death, dying and all the negative, depressive grief overtake me, I must find ways to be strong and be positive for them. Late at night, I do my nightly research on all the ways to fight cancer and to cure cancer. I look for real stories and bloggers on how others, like me, face their paths.
It's unreal that I have this. So unfair. But, after watching the movie, the Letter Writer, I realized that I too must live life beautifully and positively, no matter what life brings upon me. I'm glad I made it through 2012, seeing Ethan start first grade, seeing him play soccer and seeing the girls dance. It's amazing how much all the kids have grown this year. Ellen's doing so well in her Kumon and school work. She's just a joy to talk to and play with. Emma, with your fearless attitude and the most adorable laugh and zest personality, you are so precious.
So here's to another hopeful good year in 2013. Happy New Year's. Lots of Love.
It's unreal that I have this. So unfair. But, after watching the movie, the Letter Writer, I realized that I too must live life beautifully and positively, no matter what life brings upon me. I'm glad I made it through 2012, seeing Ethan start first grade, seeing him play soccer and seeing the girls dance. It's amazing how much all the kids have grown this year. Ellen's doing so well in her Kumon and school work. She's just a joy to talk to and play with. Emma, with your fearless attitude and the most adorable laugh and zest personality, you are so precious.
So here's to another hopeful good year in 2013. Happy New Year's. Lots of Love.
Thanks for sharing more touching thoughts about you and your precious family, Fawn. I will continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers and pray that you can beat this cancer since your babies need their mama. You are VERY courageous and strong as steel to deal with all this like you have and to share it with us. May God continue to give you the strength to endure each and every day.
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You are living beautifully. You're living with more grace and gratitude than most of us are capable of (myself included). You're an inspiration to others by treating every day with your family as a gift. I pray that nothing but good things happen for you in 2013.
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