Thoughts

Today was my week off from chemo and I got busy getting lots done, from work, to errands, and visiting a new preschool for the girls to attend. Personal business, like submitting reimbursement claims, and even gathering info together to fax, complete forms etc, take so much time and energy to get done. Speaking of time, time seems to pass by so fast. And time is so precious as I try very hard to magically think my way into being healthy. Wishful thinking,that I could just be cancer free...but I'm not. And so every morning as I get up, I'm just thankful for that day. But, it's a hard to not think about my time here being cut short. It's so unfair to my kids, so unfair & so unlucky that I have what I have. Death, dying, it's always on my mind. I struggle almost everyday, wondering if I really should be "working" or be at work nowadays as my time seems better spent with my kids. I enjoy work and it feels great to have a "normal" routine and it feels good that I am contributing towards society, contributing towards my