Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Thoughts
Today was my week off from chemo and I got busy getting lots done, from work, to errands, and visiting a new preschool for the girls to attend. Personal business, like submitting reimbursement claims, and even gathering info together to fax, complete forms etc, take so much time and energy to get done. Speaking of time, time seems to pass by so fast.
And time is so precious as I try very hard to magically think my way into being healthy. Wishful thinking,that I could just be cancer free...but I'm not. And so every morning as I get up, I'm just thankful for that day. But, it's a hard to not think about my time here being cut short. It's so unfair to my kids, so unfair & so unlucky that I have what I have. Death, dying, it's always on my mind.
I struggle almost everyday, wondering if I really should be "working" or be at work nowadays as my time seems better spent with my kids. I enjoy work and it feels great to have a "normal" routine and it feels good that I am contributing towards society, contributing towards my
Friday, July 13, 2012
Update
This past Wednesday, I saw Dr. Neal, and got chemo treatment with Gemzar. Nothing unusual, and my once every 3 weeks appointment with him was very quick. I"ll see him again in 3 weeks. I"ll be back next Wednesday for chemo again. I know, my chemo regimen is 2 weeks back to back, with 1 week off and then back again. It's never ending...Grueling cycles. Wishing for a miracle to happen everyday for the cancer to disappear.
As for me, keeping busy as usual with the kids, work and enjoying every moment with the kids. Life gets busy with the everyday tasks, and I have to start planning our Disneyland family vacation soon as well as the kids preschool registration for Fall. Been busy working with kids on their academics everyday after work in the evenings which is a lot of hard work!lots of love.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Busy July 4th
Family Fun
Finally, after months of back to back weekly appointments every Wednesday, I was happy to have yesterday off both from Chemo and work to enjoy the July 4th holiday with my family and friends. We took the kids to Girloy Gardens for about 3 hours and then it was time to head to a friend's place to enjoy a yummy BBQ. The kids took a brief nap before waking up to play with kids their age at the BBQ. It was really nice hanging with the family and seeing friends. Later towards the evening, we all ventured out to see a spectacular 20 minutes of Fireworks show at our local SJ Giants stadium. By the time we got home, we were super tired. Despite being so tired today, I had to get up early to get into work to do a presentation webinar training and do some work the rest of the day. Like any parent, instead of spending most of my time at work, in the back of my mind, I really wish I was at home, hanging out the kids and spending time with them.
With our nanny off yesterday and today, and with the kids being so tired from being out so late, they took today off from their summer preschool and school camp today to hang out at home with their Dad. I'm glad they had today off to just rest and relax.
ASCO Conference 2012 Review, Thursday, June 28, 2012
I do lots of reading on the latest news, treatments, trials, genetic mutation and information from Grace and http://blog.lungevity.org/category/podcasts-webinars/. In the next few weeks, Lungevity will post the annual program on the highlights in lung cancer from the annual ASCO conference, produced by GRACE in partnership with the LUNGevity Foundation, featuring my own oncologist, "Dr. Joel Neal, Assistant Professor from Stanford University. The topics included a summary of the results and implications from the newest and most important new studies being presented at ASCO, the largest oncology meeting of the year.
I really find the audio and video podcasts really informative. As for mutation or markers on lung cancer, I find listening to this podcast at http://blog.lungevity.org/2012/06/07/sm-markers-pts-5-6/, really helps explain all the mutations on advanced lung cancer. I'm going to ask Dr. Neal about these markers. Lots of Love.
Finally, after months of back to back weekly appointments every Wednesday, I was happy to have yesterday off both from Chemo and work to enjoy the July 4th holiday with my family and friends. We took the kids to Girloy Gardens for about 3 hours and then it was time to head to a friend's place to enjoy a yummy BBQ. The kids took a brief nap before waking up to play with kids their age at the BBQ. It was really nice hanging with the family and seeing friends. Later towards the evening, we all ventured out to see a spectacular 20 minutes of Fireworks show at our local SJ Giants stadium. By the time we got home, we were super tired. Despite being so tired today, I had to get up early to get into work to do a presentation webinar training and do some work the rest of the day. Like any parent, instead of spending most of my time at work, in the back of my mind, I really wish I was at home, hanging out the kids and spending time with them.
With our nanny off yesterday and today, and with the kids being so tired from being out so late, they took today off from their summer preschool and school camp today to hang out at home with their Dad. I'm glad they had today off to just rest and relax.
ASCO Conference 2012 Review, Thursday, June 28, 2012
I do lots of reading on the latest news, treatments, trials, genetic mutation and information from Grace and http://blog.lungevity.org/category/podcasts-webinars/. In the next few weeks, Lungevity will post the annual program on the highlights in lung cancer from the annual ASCO conference, produced by GRACE in partnership with the LUNGevity Foundation, featuring my own oncologist, "Dr. Joel Neal, Assistant Professor from Stanford University. The topics included a summary of the results and implications from the newest and most important new studies being presented at ASCO, the largest oncology meeting of the year.
I really find the audio and video podcasts really informative. As for mutation or markers on lung cancer, I find listening to this podcast at http://blog.lungevity.org/2012/06/07/sm-markers-pts-5-6/, really helps explain all the mutations on advanced lung cancer. I'm going to ask Dr. Neal about these markers. Lots of Love.
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