Live Everyday as If it's your Last

Shocked. Sad. Very sad. Loss. These were the emotions that hit hard when I learned of Steve Job's death. He was such a extraordinary visionary, pioneer of all the modern magic of Apple and its products. What a tragic loss to the world. I once worked for Apple for about 3 years and even though I never met him, I'm an forever grateful for all he has done and created for the world. It was an amazing 3 years that I worked there. So much innovation. So much energy. And of course, alot of hard work and long hours and even weekends working.  But, I'm so glad I worked there. In so many ways,Steve Jobs, Apple, touched our hearts with all the awe, beauty, ease, and innovative of modern gadgets that we can't simply live without.  Everything he has done, even his words, his commencement speech at Stanford was a gift. In his amazing speech, he clearly shares his wisdom and guidance to us all. You can read his speech at http://news.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html

In his speech, he shares 3 great stories. Stories to guide and live your life by. It's such a brilliant speech. He says "No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. "

I read his speech over and over again. He's so right about life and death, about living life, following your own heart and doing what you love. I have to remind myself to treasure all the simplest, beauty of life sometimes and not get so overcome with worrying about everything. I have to focus on the now and the life that surrounds me. Death is apart of life.  But, Steve Jobs is right when he says no one wants to die. And so, faced with I have, I have to keep on the march of life, keep on doing what makes me happy and keep on doing the normalness to make my kids and family happy. 

Hot Sweats, Flashes
Back to me and my health update. I'm doing ok but now I frequently get hot flashes and hot moments of bursting, bubbly dry hot sweats needling throughout my body. I'm wondering if it's the cancer that spreading. It's so uncomfortable and at every moment as I get it, almost immediately, I have to find anyway I can for a burst of cold air or fan. It's awful. For being 35 years old, with the cancer, it's making me double in age and I feel like an elderly lady whose bones and back ache. It's no fun.  But, I have to keep trenching on and giving, and living. Keep on fighting. Keep up hope. So, let's all keep on praying for the best.